SotonShades
10-19-2012, 10:38 AM
Well, you will have to ask a certain few women about the first part...
Yes, as you may or may not have noticed, I haven't been posting a lot recently. Some of that comes down to having a job finally (even if it's only working for my dad... still fairly relevent experience) and some comes down to having honed and rehoned an army list for a tournament recently (which I subsequently came second to last in. Thankyou again, DrLove, for stealing away my woodenspoon!)
However it has also been due to another wave of depression crashing down on me. It has pushed me away from doing things I enjoy, even making my weekly gaming routine become a chore to struggle through. Trawling through the Lounge actually became quite a stressful activity for me for a while, thanks to so many of our wonderful community posting so often and me not being able to keep up with it, even only skim reading choice threads. Not that I'd want you all to post less, just by way of an explaination. Missing out on the comradary from here actually pushed me further down. I know I'm not the only person on here who suffers, so I'd like to say a big thank you to everyone for all the friendly help and advice we give each other. It may only be a kind word, but you never know what it could mean to someone. That is another reason I stopped posting; it was very hard to find anything positive to say in some cases and while constructive criticsm is good, I felt I would only be spewing poison. Maybe I should have joined Warseer or Dakka to get that out of my system, but I am not that guy and wouldn't want to let myself become like that. Not to mention the inevitable backlash would have crippled my all ready vulnerable emotional state.
Hopefully now I am on my way back up a bit, so I am going to try and post a bit more, particularly on my KoptaForce thread. Having got the tournament army out of the way I should be able to focus my creative energies a bit more, though I am still finding motivation a little difficult to come by at the moment.
Newho, off to Hobby and Project to show you all my latest creations, small as they are...
Shades
Yes, as you may or may not have noticed, I haven't been posting a lot recently. Some of that comes down to having a job finally (even if it's only working for my dad... still fairly relevent experience) and some comes down to having honed and rehoned an army list for a tournament recently (which I subsequently came second to last in. Thankyou again, DrLove, for stealing away my woodenspoon!)
However it has also been due to another wave of depression crashing down on me. It has pushed me away from doing things I enjoy, even making my weekly gaming routine become a chore to struggle through. Trawling through the Lounge actually became quite a stressful activity for me for a while, thanks to so many of our wonderful community posting so often and me not being able to keep up with it, even only skim reading choice threads. Not that I'd want you all to post less, just by way of an explaination. Missing out on the comradary from here actually pushed me further down. I know I'm not the only person on here who suffers, so I'd like to say a big thank you to everyone for all the friendly help and advice we give each other. It may only be a kind word, but you never know what it could mean to someone. That is another reason I stopped posting; it was very hard to find anything positive to say in some cases and while constructive criticsm is good, I felt I would only be spewing poison. Maybe I should have joined Warseer or Dakka to get that out of my system, but I am not that guy and wouldn't want to let myself become like that. Not to mention the inevitable backlash would have crippled my all ready vulnerable emotional state.
Hopefully now I am on my way back up a bit, so I am going to try and post a bit more, particularly on my KoptaForce thread. Having got the tournament army out of the way I should be able to focus my creative energies a bit more, though I am still finding motivation a little difficult to come by at the moment.
Newho, off to Hobby and Project to show you all my latest creations, small as they are...
Shades